Vox is closing. So I'm gonna have to go back to mania.
I do miss those feelings. The extreme optimism, the loving of life.. Holding the whole world in my hands, pretty much.
I DON'T WANT VOX TO CLOSE! I LOVE THIS BLOG! MY CRAZY OLD BLOG OF INFATUATION! AGHHHH! WHY DOES I HAS TO SAY GOODBYEZ?!?!?!!?!? Grr. I miss the pie.
I am crazy.
Join me on my tales of marvelous mania (and the delicious depression!) I'm a maniac.
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Grizzly Bear - Two Weeks
I can't believe it. I really cannot believe how good I am feeling at this moment.
Before, my life was totally shattered, and I was drowning in my sorrows. Now, for some reason, life is just so... marvelous! I haven't felt this happy in a very long time, dears. The feeling is incredible. I am so thankful to be living this life, and being a part of this beautiful world. I actually marveled at the sky today! The world's beauty is really coming back to me. I've finally accepted the whole breakup situation when my bus driver told me some really good advice. "Hun, you don't need to be worrying about boys, now. I'm telling you - It is not worth the stress or the heartache." And it's just so true! It took a little time to set in, but today.. today was the best day I've had in a long time. Words really can't explain how happy I am. Life is good!
Don't Try So Hard - Queen
Doing Alright - Queen
Today... was my very first day of high school. Oh boy.. let's just start.
First of all, I'd like to say that it's very weird how people just walk around at the beginning of the day instead of going to their classes. I'm not kidding, people seriously just walk around the halls.. In junior high, we had to sit in the cafeteria for what seemed like an hour, and then we'd go to our lockers and then to our classes. High school is pretty weird, I must say. Anyway, when I finally stopped walking around and went to first period, I was surprised to find my friend, Hannah there. She was the only one of my friends in that class! I have a feeling that English is going to be incredibly boring. We also got homework in that class.. and yeah. Afterwords I had geometry. I'm looking forward to class with that teacher because he's quite a character.. but just not the math, because everyone knows I HATE math! Third period was history. My teacher seems pretty nice, and my friend Mckala's in that class, but it didn't seem too special. Fourth period I had gym.. I really hate gym. Atleast my best friend, Katie is in that class, along with two of my other friends, Erika and Hannah. Fifth period. Oh. My. Goodness. This takes the cake. Fifth period was when we get assigned our lockers, and guess who walked into that classroom. Exactly seventeen seconds into class I realized that Heath's locker was going to be right next to mine, and I turned out to be right. Curse you, alphabet! I figured it's karma for going back on this blog! So yeah, Heath's in my science class and his locker's right. next. to. mine. Aggghhhh! Ok, switching topics. Lunch was fun. I sat with Katie and we got the awesome pizza and fries. They had pizza with BACON on it! And the fries tasted just as good as McDonald's! It was awesome! I was sad that a fly went into my applesauce, though. Sixth period I had a class called Food For Thought, where obviously, you get to learn how to prepare and cook food and all that jazz. Our first lab is going to be baking cookies! I'm excited! My last period was French. The teacher is very nice, so I don't think the class will be too much to handle. Although since it's last there are some silly 8th graders in there. They shouldn't be too much of a bother. Also, I made friends with a sophmore named Pensudar. I have never heard that name before! She was really nice and we had a few things in common. I really think that this year is going to be a great one. Here we go, high school! :D
Fair - Confidently Dreaming
In Out
Keane The Beatles
Broken hearts Broken nails
Freckles Pimples
Try Again - Keane
I have to admit, it feels as if things are looking up..
My mom and I are speaking to each other again, which has lifted a lot of weight off my shoulders. Also, I'm doing the best that I can to try and forget about Anthony.. I'm really really trying! Sometimes, it is just so hard, though. Anyway,
last night I had my freshman orientation. All I can say is BORING! Plus, I still don't know where half of my classes are. I have a feeling that I'm going to look so dumb carrying that map around... I am also dying to know who is in my classes! Right now, high school is pretty confusing but I guess I'll get used to it. I am so anxious for the first day it isn't even funny. I really hate how this blog makes me sound so lame.. Ohhh boy.
Arcade Fire - Headlights Look Like Diamonds
Death Cab For Cutie - Summer Skin
Well hello there. I decided to come back to this blog because I was an absolute wreck on this blog, then I got extremely happy and created a new blog.. Now, I'm an absolute wreck again.
These days, I have been filled with sleepless nights, good dreams that become bad as I wake, buckets of tears, and the worst - loneliness. On August 17th, my boyfriend, Anthony, broke up with me. On August 20th, a day we were supposed to have a "second" one of, my life crumbled to pieces. I had basically been told by my father that my life was over. Now, I am grounded for who knows how long, my mother is not speaking to me, and Anthony has informed me that he wants out of my life and to be uninvolved with me completely. I think about how much I miss him and love him every single day. When I was with Anthony, it was real. I was so happy, I felt like I was at the absolute top of the world. I would say I had eaten tubs of happiness for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Now that he is gone, my life absolutely sucks. It is just so horrible, and everyday I struggle to get out of bed. Somedays, I don't even bother to put in my contacts. I just leave my glasses on, stained with tears. I leave my hair unfixed, I sleep in my clothes.. I just don't see the point in it all anymore.
When I started this blog I was going into sixth grade. In only a matter of days, I will be entering ninth grade. High school. Tonight is my freshman orientation. My new clothes were taken away, so I'm going to have to wear a blouse I got earlier this summer. I really hope I'll get them back, but I have no idea when.. I am hoping that high school will take my mind off of all the horrible things going on in my life. My best friend, Katie, told me to just try and hold your head up no matter how hard it is. But it's just so hard, though! I really hope that after tonight my life will finally start to get better. But I usually jinx things every time, so I doubt it will.
Wish me luck.
Muse - Stockholm Syndrome
In Out
The red heart The pink heart
Loose Jeans Skinny Jeans
"Nahhhh!" "Hey..."
I don't feel like telling this story very detailed, but here's the very first adventure of English: Eighth Grade Edition.
This morning there was this extremely creepy centipede-looking-thing crawling all over the floor. Kelly grabs one of those little handheld pencil sharpeners and traps the bug inside. After it was trapped, she then placed it on Smithster's desk. Everyone was giggling frantically as she held the pencil sharpener and put it away without even noticing what was inside. "Whatever it is you guys, just tell me. Jeez, eighth graders are getting on my last nerve this morning!!" She stated. Once she left the room Kelly grabbed the pencil sharpener and dumped the centipede in the trashcan and said, "Everybody just sit down and shut up!!" Then we all burst out laughing. What a day in English.... Hopefully more funny moments will come along.
Today's undecipherable phrase would have to be: ijfil ♥
Ok, ok. So there's this green chalkboard in the cafeteria that everyone can see. Yesterday I wrote a slew of "AMY"'s and "I ♥ PIE!"'s also. Today I decided to write something that turned out to be true (just as planned ;] ) and wrote in enourmous bold letters "I'M GONNA CRAWL". It's my absolute favorite Led Zeppelin song. Now, the phrase is a code for something, in which only a few lucky souls may know, and Anthony happens to be one of them. I saw him before lunch and demanded that he read the message on the green board. "I saw all of that!!" He stated. "Well I drew a new one!" I exclaimed, and then ran off - because I was supposed to be in class. Mwahahaha, I'm so sneaky! Anyways, the whole thing was fun, besides the fact that everyone asked, "What's 'I'm gonna crawl' mean?" Aha, my dearies, I told you it was code - so that remains a true secret! Life is good! I'm so glad to be here! The norm has definitley returned. Oh yesss. ;] Because today - ijfil - possibly again. I don't know. Who knows? No one. No one can understand me. I'm just like that. Ta ta for now. :D
I think everything just changed forever.
I heard this song for the very first time on the radio today. It's called 'Fireflies' by Owl City. I'd previously heard one of their other songs that I like, called 'Hello Seattle'. Now, let me inform you if you don't already know, but Owl City sounds nuh-thing like Queen. I've been drowning myself in 'Fireflies' all day since I heard it on the radio. The music sounds really awesome. Lately, I haven't been listening to Queen because I've heard them so much, I think maybe TOO much. It just doesn't give me one of those awesome slaps-across-the-face type feelings like it used to. Different-ish, much? I don't know. Maybe I'm just discovering more about myself. Anyways, things are different lately. Today I just got told by one of my "friends" that I was acting mean and needed to stop. And at the dance last Friday, I was bringing everybody down because I was upset, and my friend slapped me and told me to quit acting so stupid! The events occurring in this past month have been wake-up calls. Days are going by too fast. I really need a moment to soak all of this in. I'll be back sometime next week I guess. For now I'll be in my room with the door locked and the blinds closed trying to figure out what is going on while I eat a third of my Halloween candy. Bye ♥
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